By “did it again,” I mean I overestimated myself.
My hiatus has been a good one in that the craziness at work was handled and didn’t kill me. But while I’ve been not blogging, I have been reflecting, and the truth is, I need a longer break.
I don’t want to give up on Hawleyville. I love it here. I just need to shift my focus a bit. Specifically, I need to spend the summer writing my book instead of anything and everything BUT my book. I need to get back into the gym more regularly than once or twice a week. I need to continue to re-energize in how I look at my job, finding and tackling the creative aspects of it instead of obsessing about how it leaves me no time to write. I’m stuck being a Workin’ Jane Drone til I’m either 80 or have dropped dead, most likely. To reclaim that thing called “happy,” I just need to do more of what I’ve been doing in the past few weeks – finding things I LIKE about my job instead of resenting it and make the best of it.
In other words, I need to “reset” how I’m getting where I’m going and focus on what makes me happy.As much as I love writing blog posts, they don’t make me as happy right now as they once did. That isn’t because I don’t enjoy them, but because I spend the whole time I’m blogging thinking about what I’m NOT doing instead.
Too much on the plate leaves you overstuffed, even when most of the food is delicious.
So, I’m not giving myself a “when I’ll be back” deadline. I will commit to at least doing a progress update and a check-in on what I’m thinking about the future of Hawleyville around my birthday in mid-August. And while I’m not blogging, I will be:
– working on the novel and/or other writing projects for potential publication 8-10 hours a week.Of the hours I dedicate, at least five will be on the novel. It doesn’t sound like much, but it is progress I can make consistently without beating myself up and wearing myself down.
– going to the gym at least 3 times per week. Hopefully four, but this rebalancing is all about being better at working with what I have to give instead of what I wish I could carve out time to do.
– reading and keeping up with my favorite blogs as much as I can, even if that’s only monthly.
Sorry to extend the hiatus, but I believe good things are gonna come out on the other side of me getting myself together. Til then …